Saturday, September 5, 2015

September is for blogging...


I can't believe how long it has been since I have blogged!  I have posted occasionally on FB, Twitter and have tried to keep up with GoodReads, but I have been failing as a blogger, and I am sorry.  I wanted to write you all a letter (something I don't usually do) to catch up and in a way explain why I faded away the last few months.

How have you all been?  Are you reading great books?  Catch any great sales?  I know I have grown my TBR quite strongly since this summer and my want to read book list is insane (but awesome).

When I started The Blushing Reader blog back in 2013 I wanted to connect with other readers, possibly meet new authors and just share the love I had for reading books that most of us don't admit we read.  I did it!  I instantly found a connection in this community and it was an amazing journey.  However, somewhere between the start 2015 and summer I started to really resent this blog and all the "work" that I had.  Blogging stopped being fun and started being stressful.  

Why did this happen?  A few reasons.  First, I couldn't say no.  I have a hard time saying no and then I got overwhelmed with all the work.  Second, I signed up for every tour, cover reveal and release day because I wanted my blog to get attention.  Third, I let this become a chore instead of a hobby.  Fourth, I let people who didn't run my blog tell me how to post, what to post and when to post.  Wow, that sounds like a lot of whining... and it is, but it is the truth.  I am not pointing fingers at anyone but me.  I let this happen.  At almost 40 (the 10th anniversary of turning 29 is fast approaching this month) I should know better, and I now, I do.   (It just took me a while to "get it")

After ignoring review request emails (I am so sorry if that was you), taking my name off blog tour company lists, deleting general blog tour requests and just flat out staying away from my blog related social media over the course of the last few months, I realized something.  I missed this blog!  I missed what I started two and half years ago.  I LOVE sharing amazing books with you!  I missed the Authors that I felt I became friends with and I missed discovering new Authors too.  I missed feeling connected to other readers.  I missed a lot of things but I didn't miss being told what to read and how to review the books.  Then I realized something.... I was an idiot!  This is a blog, not a career. This is a fun thing I do for free.  It doesn't matter how many FB likes I have or how many Twitter followers I get, it only matters that I be me and enjoy the journey.  I have come to the realization that I have the power to change the direction of the blog anytime and for any reason and I am going to do just that.  I am going to try to put more of "me" into this blog and create more a community.  I hope you all will stick with me!

The Blushing Reader is something that I love and I am going to do my best to post regularly, share the books (the good and the bad) that I have been reading and actually blog instead of just posting generic and structured posts.  I am challenging myself to let you all get to know me and hopefully I can get to know you in return, so that means change.  Change is good (and hard)!

If you are reading this and you are still with me then, THANK YOU!  Things will be changing over the next month or so and I hope you stick with me.  If you want to connect with me I am on think every social media platform there is, usually Twitter and FB and always you can find me on GoodReads (I have a book club there full of awesome ladies, did you know that?)

Whew!  I feel better, the guilt I have had over books un-reviewed, emails unanswered and social media posts not written was was drowning me, so thank you for letting me come up for air and get it off my chest!   

I hope each of you have a great weekend (here in the US, Happy Labor Day) and get a chance to do something fun just for you!  I am about to crack open my Kindle and dive into The Bourbon Kings (finally)!  

I would love to hear from you, so drop me a comment, post or tweet and let me know what you are up to and most importantly what are you reading right now?  

Happy reading and may all your books be so good they make you BLUSH!